Page 271 - Complete Works of Dr. KCV Volume 1

is a category of personal existence and, therefore, separative and individuative of one's existence, marking one apart from others equally individuated; or marking one apart from the Whole to which one really belongs. Existence, in this sense, means a loss of being (called essence) and loss of existence would mean the gain of being (essence). Therefore mystics normally seek the dissolution or merger or losing of oneself in the Whole, God or Non-Being. Others, like the religious, see in the merging or uniting with the Whole an enhancement of Being or Existence, or living essence (ujjivana).
Realization means, then, to attain one's natural condition of being which is felt and recognized as such, whether it is attained through mergence in the All or God, or Non-existence which is understood as the loss or absence of existence in the sense in which we all know it, that is, the limited and finite and morel life that we live. Thus the idealists innovated a convention of putting (in the English language) the terms of the ultimate connotation in capitals viz. Reality, Existence (or Non-existence) Being (or Non-being), Nirvana and so on. Some have definitely made out that since our language cannot adequately speak about it either in the affirmative or in the negative, that condition should be deemed incommunicable through language-signs or by any other signs whatsoever. It is something to be attained, felt, or enjoyed, or lived, without the least idea of separateness from it.
Such a nir-vikalpaka experience is the goal which a religious mystic seeks. It is the goal which is the ultimate good for man. The secret of manifestation can only be known by this experience and not without it or outside it. To speak about the nature of light or colour from the objects it falls upon, or which it shows up, is perhaps a near way, but it cannot give any real explanation of the nature of light itself. In our existence or experience we can never discern the nature and meaning of ourselves; that is why we are compelled to go beyond ourselves and not merely out of ourselves - the latter process makes knowledge itself a successful illusion or hallucination. To rise beyond ourselves and gain that height of Being is our only way towards real experience and Being.
But it is a very distant goal, and such a transcendent state is not aimed at by most seekers. Any one who sees or feels the call of the Ultimate would