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The problem of living
feel himself undone since he might be feeling neither interest, nor joy, nor even anandam. That is in fact the real anandam which one might aspire for. But then one might say that this does not agree with the description given in the Shastras (as the store-house of ananda). But that is only a misconception, for the real anandam is not the thing that can in any way be associated with the feeling of joy or happiness. Now, if one is brought up to it without undergoing the conditions at intermediary stages, he will neither have confidence nor command.
At the higher levels of approach the sense of feeling also ends. Differentiation is almost lost, and ̳ignorance' develops without any awareness of it. As a matter of fact, I have for that reason become quite ill-fitted for elementary training. People of the primary standard who come to me for spiritual training get from me some of my own state or at least some thing similar to that. And that is exactly what they do not like at all, for that would not be suited to their taste. They would like to have something exciting, pleasing, joyful, which may not be there according to their sense of understanding.
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