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SURRENDER – ITS RELEVANCE IN SADHANA
possible and give no scope for any lapse in our making ourselves enjoyable to Him. Then comes the state where we feel that He is our Soul and we are His body. I had to pass through this state for a long time and I used to write to my Master closing the letter always with the words “yours as body and soul”. Any other expression of my status I used to feel is not full and complete. This continued till I found that the need to drop the words “your as” when I started using the more conventional ‘lovingly” just as a matter of routine.
After we surrender all that is ours to Him, comes the stage that everything that is done is done by Him. This is the stage where we start feeling how gross we are and our ways in which we were thinking till now that all are His actions in words. We then start feeling that He is the one who enjoys the fruits of action. It no more gets felt as our action, but action alone stands and the fruits are His. This is no philosophy but an actual feeling where the action and the result thereof ceases to form any impression and we need to be reminded by others that some certain act was done by us. Knowledge of performance of action and awareness of the results of such action is faintly had and we start feeling that everything is His. The state of Sthitha
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