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just seeking your betterment. That is why the prayer becomes plural. As Dr. Varadachari puts it, he says in the beginning you can start with I, “I am yet but slaves of wishes putting a bar to my advancement”, later on it changes to we. “We are yet, but slaves of wishes”. Here the wishes is not just yours. Even when he says singular it becomes wishes only and not my wishes. I am yet a slave of wishes, not only my wishes, my wife's wishes are there, my sons wishes are there, my father's wishes are there, my friends wishes are there about me. They have got various expectations about me. All those things are binding me. I must get out of it. I pray, I am incapable of coming out of it, you better save me. That particular attitude of humility we have to develop. Only when we know the enormity of the subject we will be in a position to develop the humility, otherwise we will think we are very confident to do anything. The prayer also as far as I know, majority of the abhyasis do it ritually repeating it once or twice. We should get into that thought and get lost. Once or twice is remembered very well because one and two we know buckle my shoe. These two we remember and then go to bed. No question of getting into that attitude of humility, no question of feeling the presence of the divinity, no question of feeling the necessity to grow
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