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BODHAYANTI PARASPARAM – VOL 3
we will be least fitted for a serious study of the states in meditation and consequent exercises in ‘imperience’. If some one were to ask me "Have you ever been in the state of confusion struggling with lower order mental vrttis?" My answer would be "Of course." If any one further asked me "What did you do then?” my answer would be "Tried to stay there ignoring all other thoughts than the divine light which any way was not there". I understood that attitude is staying with Reality whatever it might be. I have a lesson learnt there:” that if I can be settled in such a state I can be in any other place and circumstance.”
To remain fixed on the thought of the divine light when we are bombarded with impulses emanating from the lower animal and ghost realms of consciousness is tough. This suffering is the worst mental plane suffering that we learn to endure with the help of the Pranahuti in our system. But that does not by itself nullify the suffering and in fact we learn to appreciate and evaluate the spectrum of suffering we have and thereby develop a stoic attitude along with the development of faith in the Master.
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