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VAIRAGYA
our Ahankar which says ‘yesterday I was recognised today I am not recognised’, A player who was the best player yesterday, when told today that he is out of form and therefore removed from the team, will not prepared to accept it. Yesterday some one was a splendid person in painting today even if his painting is rubbish he will not be prepared to accept the same. He would like to argue again and again on his horses rather than accept today he has given some rubbish; he will be adamant and refuse to accept his failure. Once we have granted certain amount of efficiency to a person saying that one can do something very good, he tends to think that he will always do well. That is the problem, which is the essential problem of Ego. If that is cut off then naturally our Ahankar comes to its Balance.
This tendency to think that I cannot err because I was told that I did not err earlier is the main problem whatever is the field. So, when we talk about renunciation, renunciation of our mental concepts, our feelings and our Ahankar, they are really the toughest stumbling blocks. The remaining things can be easily given up as many people have
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