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BODHAYANTI PARASPARAM – VOL 4
Ocean. We know the clouds and waves are not separate from the sky and ocean.
We know that our minds move frantically in voidness and we find it not separating itself from the Void. Yet in the experience of Void there are more practical difficulties. Once we know that the initial Stir or Kshob and our mind are of the same nature we can easily appreciate the thoughts and feelings which are not 'out in the open' but lying deep down in the heart and making us move on and on. Nearer the Centre the waves are subtle yet very powerful and do not permit any peep into the Sanctum. Master said he could have a peep and was pushed out.
Another difficulty is the experience of torpor, which has two varieties. There is what we could call torpor itself, and there is obscurity, which is a further development of that. Torpor is the absence of clarity, the absence of any cognitive lucidity in the meditation, and obscurity is even beyond that, where there is a thick dullness. Now, the problem with torpor and obscurity is that they obviously bring
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