Page 605 - Bodhayanti Parasparam Vol 6

“The understanding comes when the seed at the bottom is fried up”
as they demand changes for which there is a lot of resistance from within.
From my personal experience I can say that it is futile to resist change. The samskaras that come to fruition follow the theory of karma. The ones (samskaras) whose bhoga is pleasing to us, we do not mind but the ones where we are made to change pinch us the most. However during this phase of bhoga, we have to be cautious and not give in to self-pity. Self-pity presents a very big trap and can keep us in its clutches for as long as possible. We have to follow the commandments and keep our faith, however fragile it is, in Master, thinking all the while that He will not give us anything that we cannot handle and that this too shall pass.
When we are in self-pity we know that we should not be so but even after knowing this, the wisdom to come out of self-pity is not there as we just know the words and do not have the necessary wisdom. As our Rev. Master states, “For every grain of knowledge the wisdom required must be at least ten times greater. If that much of wisdom is there, the goal shall definitely be in our view and we shall be inspired more and more to proceed on into the sphere of Reality”. (SS-38) About self-pity, our Rev. Guide has said that self-pity is the play of our ego and we are fighting with shadows. The moment we realize that we are unnecessarily fighting the situation, we should let go, and just do what the situation demands from us at that time. We should desist from thinking and analyzing during such crucial phase because it is our mind itself that has gotten us into this problem. We should just do our meditational practices and continue doing what is expected from us; in other words – do our duty towards home and office. In other words we have to yield to the situation and to Rev. Master and only then we are able to go through that situation. After the situation has passed
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