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PRAYER
we keep feeding them to stay alive. It is usually our desires that feed the dream and our aversions that feed the nightmares. During meditation also this type of dream like experience occurs even in advanced aspirants in the path. Everyone has both negative and positive aspects within, as does all manifest reality. Perceived negativity within ourselves is a problem only when it is an object of aversion, because then it starts controlling us. That is the reason why we are not able to accept negative states of mind or negative emotions in us during meditations. When we fail to convince ourselves through our own resources we crave for the indulgence of a superior person or Master. Through such a craving we try to convince ourselves as feeling dependence on Master and this attitude itself becomes an addiction. This is most often confused with a state of mind immersed in prayer. That is the reason we find many aspirants repeating the words “master, master, master... or Babuji, Babuji, Babuji” or some such word or phrase instead of continuing to meditate ignoring these thoughts of negative import. Virtually all conditions that are judged to be
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