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GRACE DIVINE
some sort of matter. And any matter is a form. Thus the thoughts which were once felt as a mist becomes deep and heavy like fog. I once saw the condition of an aspirant given to the grosser forms of worship, so meshed with dark and heavy thought forms that his head appeared to be a swarm and the thoughts were stingy enough that I had to wait for quite few months to clean his heart using many methods given by the Master. It must be stated to the credit of the aspirant that he was terribly depressed with the type of worships he was doing and being unable to get out of them was also angry with himself and the various deities he was worshipping. The solution to this type of problem is hard work of cleaning by the aspirant aided by the cleaning done by the trainer through Pranahuti and absolute faith in the grace of God. It should be noted that all this work happens in the prana sarira or the vital body.
The thoughts that disturb us during meditation and also at other times mostly relate to fear and anger. I shall dwell briefly on these two forms of pain in the prana sarira or vital body. There is fear all round now a days. All that is due to lack of security real as well as imaginary. After the serious setbacks in the world economy recently the main feeling of the
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