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make sure that we are completely blocking out all negative influences which affect our reaching the goal in our life. If we feel that we are being distracted from our goal by a problem which does not seem to go away, we have to ask ourselves what we can do to eliminate such a challenge and distraction in our life. It may be we are being sidetracked by negative thoughts and feelings because we have no faith in our ‘self’.
iv) Lack of faith in one’s self is most of the time the main blocking out or negative distraction. Addressing the root of the problem, completely blocking out any negative distractions and thinking purely positive thoughts is the best way for us to develop deep motivation amounting to restlessness to achieve the real goal of life. However desperate resolve to achieve the goal does not start unless we are shaken to our roots.
In early nineteen sixties I joined my first Government job. As events happen without much of our intention I got a telegram one day while I was in office that my close friend died in a lorry road accident. He was an intimate one and his loss is something that took quite some time for me to
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