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 if you can have God and surrender to Him, He shows the path. As Sri Krishna himself said, if you choose me - "Kshipram Bhavati!" You will "become" immediately!
So I start with God, in the simplicity of my faith, in the belief of my faith. So you see that when you take up this particular Raja Yoga, you have to be a suppliant seeking existence from the Ultimate Guru we call God. God is thought to be difficult of access. That may be true of God if you take Him as a king or ruler of the world, that is, in his political function. But if you take Him in his hermitage, then direct contact with God is possible. This desired contact has been one of my earliest personal experiences. You may have heard of Thirumangai Alwar. He was wandering all over to find a guru, but nobody would take him up, or teach him. In despair he went to a temple, and not finding the archakar, went directly in and prostrated before the deity, saying 'Om Namo Narayanaya'. And that was all! I got this inspiration later. My training later was taken over. I was not very conscious about it. It is only in retrospect that He seems to have had a guiding hand in my development.
When I came to Shri Ram Chandraji I did not know him earlier. I never went to Shahjahanpur, except much later. He came! Even then I wanted to test him. I said "You claim too much that you can put me in direct touch with God. How can you do this? Can you explain the process by which you make such a big claim". These were the questions, I asked him.
"I cannot talk. I am not a learned man like you, but sit before me; we start at the point of the heart. Secondly, I put you into direct touch with God. This process is the offering of that life force into that of the abhyasi to commence his spiritual journey". That is what he said.
I am a doubting Thomas. Even now I am one. I am afraid that God is a great deceiver. If I take Him as God, He deceives. If I take Him as a Guru, then he comes to me and satisfies me. This is a great ambivalence of God. I want you to see this distinction. Patanjali said that God is the Guru. Badarayana on the other hand said that God is the creator, the preserver and the destroyer .... Janmadyasya Yatah! There it began! But as Sri Krishna said, "Svalpamapyasya dharmasya Traayate Mahato Bhayat".






























































































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