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Commandment - 10
At bed time, feeling the presence of God, repent for the wrongs committed. Beg forgiveness in a supplicant mood, resolving not to allow the repetition of the same.
The relationship that a devotee has to the Master must come to the fullest extent so as to mean to be one between Master and slave. This is called Dasatva or Dasabhutatva. This is the dependence of the slave on the Master that he is almost nothing and this negation has reached a high stage (Master has described this in the Anant-Ki-Oer as the IXth Granthi). It is at this stage that one begins to experience two things at once, one's connection with Bhuma (Infinity) and one's nothingness apart from the Master. By thus becoming a Bhakta (which is again one of absolute dependence on God and Master), one becomes nothing because of exclusive devotion to the Paramapurusha or Master. This brings about vacuity in one's self and one's centre becomes God. This the Master has stated is like being born in another world. Thus we practise the presence of God. God's eyes are directed or attracted to oneself and it is thereafter His work and direction. This state is our natural state, the state of utter dependence on God alone. It is described as Akinchanatva - nothingness.
It is true that we are asked to practice this from the very beginning. Engaged as we are with the world our activities do not at the beginning has this entire dependence on God or God's direction. Thus all our activities are imperfect. Imperfection is the cause of our wrong doing, and imperfection results from our not being in full negation of ourselves or being nothing in ourselves. Thus wrong thoughts, deeds and speech arise. To recognize them as such is necessary. Thus one reviews one's whole day's thoughts and talks and actions, and begins to discern the imperfect manner of doing them. The keeping of a diary is helpful not merely for the purpose of noting our spiritual experiences but also of our wrong doings, doings done on our own initiative and without practice of God's and Master's presence and direction. It is necessary to review these and note them so that the mere entry of it in our diary will automatically draw the attention of the Master and speed up the process of rectification and purification. Repentance is for the loss of