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If you want to get yielding, this has to come. If you want yielding to come, you must know your lowliness, otherwise yielding will not come. One does not stabilize in surrender. It is not as if the attitudes of surrender will not be there. They will be there, not to its perfection.
The lowliness of oneself, which is stressed at the time of prayer, enhances in quality and one feels lowliest of the low and accepts that attitude. I am yet a slave of my wishes putting a bar to my advancement is a type of Nychyanusandanamu but that is only the beginning. As we advance more and more in spirituality, the state of prayer improves, to a state where we feel we are the lowly, lowliest. In the prayer we say in reference to you. God, you are the great, I am low. Next we come to a stage, where every other person in the path seems to be higher than me, I am low. So, I take the position of the lowliest of the low. That is nychyanusandanamu. So, that increases the vaccuity in us and then brings in more Grace. It cannot be imitated, it has to be developed. The lowness here is restricted to the people who are already in the path. He is paraya, shudra, vysya or brahmin is not the point. They must be people who are already in
the spiritual path. Then only they accept. He is a guru, I
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