Page 170 - Ecstasy and Agony in the Journey to Infinity

It is an emotional state, it is vyamohamu only. There will be either a bhagavatvyamohamu or a streevyamohamu. I think it is a question of you having gone through a state. A feeling that He is very dear to me and he the dearest I have. It does not matter much if you add a he or a she. If you do not know how to adore a woman, you will never know how to adore a God. This is the basis of grihasta life itself. You should be so much attached, there is certain amount of inseparable oneness, it is vyamohamu only. We cannot say that it is not so. That is a state, there is no other word, I am helpless. That is negative, I know but I find it very difficult to come down. Because if I come down, you know it takes over the entire heart. There is no other feeling that comes to you except the Master. Just for a person who loves his wife so much or any other person, he has no other thought expect that, under any circumstance. You go to office, you go to school, you go to college, anywhere, the same thought come. That is vyamohamu, it will not let you work as a matter of fact. You will not do anything else, you will get into a state where you will not do anything else, the effect is only that. You must remember that there is something called bhakti paaravasyam where you become totally 152