Page 59 - Ecstasy and Agony in the Journey to Infinity

The question may arise how a person might think he is infallible after he has accepted everything as a gift of the Divine. Both feelings are there simultaneously. The person will say that since everything is a gift of Divine, God has given this capacity. This rider comes. There are many case studies relating to this. We can only say this much that it is guaranteed that these feelings come one does fall. We would have seen in our cases itself that we would have stopped doing meditation for sometime, most definitely we would have stopped. The feeling that what is there is do more would have come and we would have definitely stopped. We slide. The path is such. It is a slippery zone, it always keeps sliding down. We commit this mistake with happiness only, there are no intentions. Happiness along with it gives big stomach right? A big stomach along with it gives enormous gravitational pull. The weight increases and it gives gravitational pull. It is one of the common problems of a sadhaka.
Tushti is felt only when we get what we want. Santhusti is the next stage after complacency. When we come out of complacency, we fall into mohamu, if we escape that
we fall into santhusti which is again due to complacency. 41