Page 79 - Imperience Beckons

Divinity. That is the way in which we try to get in to a supplicant mood.
When we are feeling the presence of the Master, repent for the wrongs committed. Some say, "I don't feel anything wrong has been done by me, I don't have to repent for it at all" therefore the question of "following this Commandment does not arise". So the question of begging forgiveness and other things does not arise for them. But then please understand that in the beginning itself we have committed the mistake of jumping out of the Homeland, we ought to be terribly repentant for that. That is the original sin we have committed, we know, when we left our homeland. As fools we walked out of it. We are now struggling to get back. How can we say we have not done anything wrong? And in the process we have developed several twists and turns, several samskaras have been formed. We have got ourselves attached to so many brothers, so many sisters, so many women, the mother, the father, and our children; we have loved them, we have differences of opinion with them, we fight with them, we appreciate them and criticize them. In such a situation how do we say we have not done anything wrong? Instead of attaching ourselves to that One Source, have we not attached ourselves to any and everything?
That is the main reason why we have been asked to develop Vairagya or due attachment? The meaning for Vairagya is that, it is not so much dejection with these people, but dejection with us, for not capable of maintaining purity with which we were created by God. "What fool have I been that I left my Home and I am here, left my source and am with all sorts of worms". That is the feeling we have deep in our heart. We feel like saying to the dear ones "you may be the most beautiful person, agreed. Still you are a worm compared to Him, I would not like to be with you, I want to get back", that is the feeling that arises in our heart during our march to Infinity. That is the basis for development of Vairagya. As a matter of fact, if we are going to question this concept of having committed a mistake and repenting for it, then the question of serfdom itself does not arise. So please note these impurities Mala, Vikshepa and Avarana about which Revered Babuji talks a lot, in other works, are there and it is our folly that created them.
Repentance is nothing but a jerk in thought waves, which creates a certain amount of vacuum within us. Please note that it helps us. We are not repentant for nothing. We are repentant which generates a jerk in our being an empty space is carved out of our ego. Thus we feel humility and the Master whom we have already chosen fills that space generated by humility. Please note repentance is