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of your own practice. Say you get up early in the morning, ok, you are able to get up. If you make a mention of it saying that I got up at such and such time and meditated or I did this japa, I did this sadhana, whatever it is, regularity or non- regularity of that will be seen by you over a period of time. You can definitely say that whether you are regular or not. If you are not regular you will then come to this conclusion there is something wrong somewhere. May be it is due to your watching a TV late in the night or going for a drama, going for a cinema, going for a club, something like that which stands in a way. You might have read more previous night and you are not able to get up early next morning. You will then be in a better position to organize your timings. So far as the practical aspect of sadhana is concerned, this is one of the most important things.
Now, for example just now you were told to meditate on divine light in the heart. Do not bother about the various thoughts that come to you. Do not also bother about the physical discomforts that you may have but continue with your task of meditating on the divine light ignoring the various thoughts that come to you. Easily said than done because which are the thoughts that come to you would be one of the first considerations we should have. Normally we get thoughts which are very very routine, day to day. May be you have to go to the school and you feel that you have not prepared well and you feel that let me complete this meditatin, so that I can go back to that i.e. tasks which are ahead. Things you have done the previous day will also be there in your mind. I could have done that better, I should improve on that, I perhaps seem to have committed a mistake in such and such thing, let me rectify it, the program that I have written in computer perhaps is wrong, or the play that I have played particularly the cricket match in which you are involved, you played a wrong stroke and you would like to rectify that by going for practice. These are the various thoughts that come to you apart from the problems that you have got, regarding say, a next day examination. These are periodical things. An examination that is there, a test is there, a departmental test is there, these things are happening. Everyday we are being examined by so many people so we would like to improve our performance on that.
So these thoughts come in the wrong time. When you meditate and later take up these things, it is much better but these things come during meditation not allowing you do this job. So these are all various thoughts that come to you. Why