Page 159 - Liberal Exposition of Pranahuti Aided Meditation

recently a call from some abhyasi saying that ‘I am not finding time for prayer at all’. I asked him, do you mediate? No, Do you clean? No, Do you pray? No. Why? I am tired.
I don’t know why we are living. If you can’t be comfortable, if you can’t be happy - and you can be happy only in company of Divinity, I tell you this, you can never be happy otherwise. In the company of anybody else you are alien, you are somebody other than Him. You and me, suppose we try to live together, still I will feel certain amount of say, a screen is there which is put saying that you are different from me. This one screen does not exist between God and you because He is always with you even when you are not mindful for Him. Your friend, you may perhaps give now and then some coffee, now and then some tiffin, now and then some food, some company of talking and all that. You give importance to your outside friend but the inside friend is ignored and even then he keeps company. He is such a fast friend, even when you ignore him totally, he remembers you, He is always with you and modern man has ruined this particular opportunity further, where all the time being busy either seeing a TV or reading a paper or hearing a music etc., your activities, your work, your study, whatever it is and then you should be dead tired that you have no time for God and then you think about sleep whereas prayer demands that you earmark some time for Him and then say this is the time for God. I am going to place myself with my friend, my friend who loves me so much, I am going to tell him what are my difficulties, what are the things that are standing against achieving my goal, why is it that I am not able to perform at my best.
Yoga, any yoga for that matter should give you the capacity to function at your best in whatever thing that you do and when you are exhausted, your performance is definitely poor but we still run. Performance is done best when it is done within certain limits. There are limits, there are physiological and psychological limits and you don’t have to pull yourself to the situation of stress or strain. There is no necessity for it but then we do all that. Then atleast you say to divinity, I am helpless, I am doing like this, please save me, atleast this much you can find sometime before going to bed and you pray to Master, saying that you alone can save me.
If you want to see various hues and colours by which your sadhana goes, the diary alone helps you for that. There is no other way, you have to maintain it