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overtakes you. If you think about one mantra the excitement takes over but if you just give the idea of a Divine light in the heart or just think about God and then keep quiet your mind is at calm, it is not excited. Kindly also note when you do japa the disturbance outside is also felt but this excitement is capable of suppressing that excitement whereas in the other case there is no excitement therefore you will not be in a position to suppress that excitement until and unless you have got into a state of total samadhi which also is an experience some of you have had. For a few seconds at least, thought becomes zero, thought becomes zero when the mind has got into the nature of silence.
It is not a continuous stillness, continuous stillness is of the nature of the dead. Momentary stillness is what we get or at equal to death or equal to no thought condition is what you get during meditation only for a few seconds in the beginning and its growth goes on and you perhaps can be in the thoughtless condition for an hour or two or whatever it is but even then, please note the excitement of the outside will continue but if your excitement of absorption, again I am using the word excitement of absorption or emotion of absorption is there, you will ignore that but if you come out of that emotion and then just have only absorption you still hear that.
What I am trying to divert is certain problems that you face in meditation. During meditation you have got this problem of gripped feeling. There are certain moments when you feel gripped that you are possessed, possessed by a particular thought. You are in that thought only, you don’t come out of it, that thought may be related to your family, it may be related to your office, it may be related to your occupation, it may be related to your brother or sister or your son or whosoever it is, still you are gripped that way. Once you come out of that gripped feeling you will feel that liberation, that feeling of detensioning. This you contrast with the gripped feeling that you have got only with the thought of God which also is a gripped feeling you get for a few seconds or a few minutes. If you compare it then you will see the other one is of a grosser variety whereas this one is of a superior variety. You will find total detensioning in the latter case whereas in the former case there is no detensioning effect but there is a smooth carry over to the normal life. These are all certain practical aspects which I am trying out of my experience to share with you so that you know for yourself this is what happens.