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find this gentleman still lying down and his disciples come and other disciples come and tell ‘we told this fellow to get up saying that you are dependent upon him for the entire information, about the subject and you are more dependent upon him than anybody else and you kicked him out and we told him we will follow him rather than you’ and he said ‘who am I to say anything about it, my master knows what is best for me’ and when Ramanuja says ‘why you did not get up’ he said ‘you have thrown me down and it is for you to lift me up who am I to get up where is my existence’. This is the narration given in tradition you may accept it or you may disown it, but what I am trying to tell is the psychological aspect of it. What is the state of mind? come what may, the decision of the Divine is final, I will not make any effort absolutely saying that I have nothing to do with anything else, it is He who does everything. This is the state of surrender about which every alternative person talks now a days. State of surrender is one of the toughest we can ever think of, because that is the state of total negation of yourself.
Now coming back to our subject of meditation what is the state of mind there. This is philosophy, fine, I have explained the philosophical aspect of it. What is the state of mind? thoughts are bound to be there, thoughts of sat-asat viveka were there; thoughts of vairagya were there, thoughts of interdependency were there, thoughts of devotion were there. Now what is the type of thought here? What is the type of thought you are going to have? A state of mind when there will be no thoughts. A surrendered person has no thoughts. How is it possible? Is it not contradictory to my system of Sri Ramchandraji, who says that thoughts are bound to be there till the end? He says that thoughts are bound to be there till the end and I say that this is no thought condition, the reason for that is you must understand what is the nature of thought. When any idea, any concept, is not in tune with the Divine, it gets thrown out, that is the origin of thoughts, origin is when it is not in tune with Divine. When a thought is not in tune with Divine, you become aware of that. It can be disturbing, it can be enjoying but then you become aware of that. When the thought is something that is totally in tune with the Divine then you become totally unaware of the existence of the thought, not that the thought is not there, thought is there but you are not aware of its existence. The existence is the essence itself and when it is in tune with the essence then it merges into it and this is an experience that you will be having on first day onwards. You will be writing as no thought, it is