Page 217 - Meditation – Pujya SriRamchandraji Maharaj

bondages which are our creation. Though our true nature is so near, by applying the telescope in the wrong direction find the same hazily far off from us and go on wailing through out the life. This is a stark and unpleasant reality but true nonetheless.
During meditation when Pranahuti is getting absorbed and the emptiness is getting filled there comes a stage when all thoughts are gone but awareness pure and simple stays. There I have invariably found a still ness that is remembered as a slight jolt. The ripples observed around the 'eye' of stillness leaves me dumb and awe stuck. Here on recall it is found the mind stopped functioning and with it are gone all ideas and beliefs, notions and aspirations; all mind stuff gone. The awareness of self is totally destroyed. Then emerges the clarity of vision. This kind of clarity is however temporary and we land back in the plane of individual identity patching up the damaged belief systems. This results in seeking for that state where the mind stuff is all but gone. This is the cause of restlessness even after vision of the absolute state. Repeatedly the vision is sought so that the belief systems assiduously developed and owned are given up in the void of being. This is a painful process of annihilation of the creations of the self. The
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