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awakening in the benumbed state”. This benumbed state remains behind the curtain, and work goes on alright. In other words, it is sense in the senseless state. A man having this state can do the best work in the field of God and in his own field-the world. This state which, in my opinion, the angles crave for, only falls to the share of human being. What is above it, the word ‘silence’ can only describe; and there is something after it for which, if I use the word ‘silence’, It will be blasphemy to the Real Substance. To die in hunger is not saintliness.”
[24-3-1931 A.B I pg 202-203]
Full Absorbency In The Master
After, revered Lalaji experienced Maha Samadhi on the morning of the 15th August 1931 I found an utmost Force or Power both within and outside me which, my inner voice assured me, had been bestowed by my Master. My Master had gone into the state of Maha-Samadhi on the night of the 14th August 1931, but I had not known about it yet. This was the usual system of transfer of power adopted by saints of calibre. It was in fact the merging of the Master into me.
When I came back from my office in the evening, my cousin-sister informed me about this sad news of the passing of my Master. It came as a terrible shock to me, and the impression of the shock lasted for years; and it is still there, in a somewhat reduced state. I took leave from the office to go for the condolence, but I developed diarrhoea and the whole leave period was spent in sickness, which was ultimately pronounced to be cholera. The diarrhoea lasted for several months afterwards. After recovery from cholera I saw Him one day in a dream at about 7 A.M. in the morning. He asked me, “What is the condition of the diarrhoea?” I said, “It is continuing”. He said that I should give up Allopathic treatment. I left it form that very time. He then asked me, “What is your spiritual condition?” I said, “This, you know best”. I meant to say that it was His responsibility. He said, “Is it so?” I said, “Yes, My Lord”. He then gave me a jerk of transmission. I found that the whole of my body from top to toe was filled with spiritual force. When He gave the second jerk my heart was about to burst and I felt extreme pain in the heart. A third jerk would have ended my live, but for this very purpose Rishis of yore practised penance in the forest for several years, sacrificing everything at the altar of spirituality. So it was not proper on my part to have requested Him to stop the transmission. I had been to Master for this very object at that time. I was gaining it, for no price. I expressed myself in another way. I said, “Oh, Master! I do not care if I die”. When he heard