Page 138 - Path to Perfection

At one time I was anxious that none of my companions should so develop that even if they are not worthy to be the dust of the feet of the Saints of the past, they, at least, might not be a stigma to my humble self. Thank God! due to blessings of great Saints such symptoms are in evidence now which show that they enjoy the divine blessings, and it is very probable that you, too, may be one of them. All this is gift of Saints, but this boon is not because of the might of arm, and cannot be obtained unless and until it is bestowed by God, the bountiful. The love, companionship and affection of your Preceptor is to be considered enough. By God he is a man of love. Love alone is a dynamic thing. May God keep you and others under the shadow of His benignity.
I have great hopes from dear Rameshwar Prasad. He too is a man of love. May the all-pervading bountifulness of God provide him with the patronage and affection of the great Saints so that his determination and object may assume permanent shape. Brother, disciples are numerous and guides very rare. These days even disciples are to be found very sparingly. This is a boon of the Saints of the order that distinction cannot be made between the disciples and our associates; otherwise it is very difficult to be a disciple. Whenever the associates get the effect of companionship or feel the breeze of gaze they, for a while, are awakened and again slip away when the fire becomes dim and stop attending the satsangh. Their personal attachment and emotion is in name only. But even this is enough that whenever a wave comes they begin to wave. They are men who keep the feet of their determination firm even with out any goading. What is grievance against so and so? They are companions of opium, charas and ganja. If these are used they are present. (Whose friends are they? They only smoke and slip away). When blessings of God descend they also have a fit and then revert to their original condition. What is there to complain about Pundit so and so. I feel perhaps in one whole year the average shall be two months when he flares up. Even then there is sometimes a craze for newspaper and sometimes for drama. The crux of the matter is that he alone is successful whom He attracts. You and I beat hands and feet for nothing. When proper time comes all those people will come to the right path by and by. Emotions and sanskars of every body are different and, accordingly, there is a separate time for each one. I intended to go to Allahabad, but I have become old. There is much cold and so courage fails. Hazards of a trainer being loaded in a goods train was not considered proper. So I gave up the idea for the time being. Can’t say what the friends there, who awaited me very anxiously and who had taken entire responsibility for all my comforts, will think. Now I intend to go to Kouch, whenever it is ordained by Him and my livelihood takes me there. Shall go to