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Role of Abhyasi
It may not be out of place to say that I often used the words `heart and soul' for my master in some of my letters, and that was in quite a natural way. Allegorically I may say that he was the only object of my love. As a matter of fact I was not a lover of freedom or any such thing, but only of Him and Him alone. If I induce others to follow the same course shall it not be, on my part, an act of arrogance because that may seem to indicate the presence, in my heart, of a desire to be adored and worshipped? My master was no doubt worthy of it, being the fittest man to be meditated upon. He was altogether free from egoistic feelings, from desires and worldly entanglements, devoted wholly to his own self. The phrase ̳devoted to his own self' refers to a spiritual state of a high order not commonly bestowed upon man. That was the reason why I loved him as best as I could. I tried heart and soul to get myself merged in him in toto and that had been the life pursuit for me. It was because I got a master who was unparalleled and matchless. I have no words to express the results achieved therefrom. In a word He is the infinite ocean of Grace in which we
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