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21. During Bedtime Prayer Some times I felt depressed. Mostly felt calm and felt absorbed into the prayer. I feel as if entire Sadhana is in Prayer. Besides 9 p.m., prayer I do Point A meditation before bedtime prayer.
You are right all sadhana is a series of lessons in Prayer. Depression is the negative aspect of Repentance. It is Repentance that needs to be had and not depression. Understand more the nature of the Divine to Forgive and be courageous enough to place before Him all that that makes you feel repentant. If such a surrender is done then our ego starts melting and slowly turns to its original shape, form. color and texture.
22. Some days did bedtime prayer with lot of devotion and submissiveness but some days felt difficulty as mind wavering is too much.
When you do a sum in Mathematics you surely do not attend to singing or dancing. It is the determination that matters. And determination is dependant on your priorities.
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