Page 180 - Three Truths and Trillion Doubts

1. I find the problem in the form of sleep embracing me whenever I start to read any of Master's books.
It is a matter of common experience that persons who read Masters work get into a state similar to sleep. It is nothing but the effect of the words and thereby the thoughts of the Master being received by our real self. Do not bother, but continue to hear Master or read his books. That will clear lot of mala, klesha and avarana.
2. I am also spending fair amount of time in reading and contemplating the works of Rev.KCV and the Master in an attempt to enter the consciousness of the Masters and try living in that as far as possible.
Any amount of reading and searching for consciousness in the books will not help you in getting at them. Not that you should not read them but that is not enough. We may read about Sacrifice and will never do it, unless there is something that is more dear than our life that is felt in the core of our being. The love of self is far superior to any of the other loves we have. I think sage Yajnavalkya is
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