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THREE TRUTHS – TRILLION DOUBTS
and one has to clear off the debts before any movement in the real sense towards the homeland happens.
I think you feel that despite working on a person there is a slip. As I always say that disinterestedness in sadhana develops even after a good start because of the necessity to go through Bhog. If a person is wise he clings on even if he does not practice as prescribed and picks up later; otherwise the great Master helps him in the way he should be. We should never feel attached so much to abhyasis as we are only trustees and Master knows how to help them.
5. I am realizing my own defects and shortcomings. From the bottom of the heart feeling repentance for the lapses committed. I am willing to change.
It is not enough to realize our lapses. We should have firm determination to get rid off them and for that we should gird up our loins as Master puts it. We can always find excuses and explanations for not doing our best and also feel satisfied with what we do. Also certain times we simply accept our mistakes and expect the Master to rectify them.
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