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Adi Daivika renunciation at a later stage are a must as we cannot travel with all these loads into the realm of Nothingness. You know better the conditions in which Vacuum is possible. But unless we are prepared to shed all load or luggage as Master calls it, the chance of entry into the realm of Reality is not possible. God as conceived by religions is not of this type or nature it is invariably of a lower level, it is only a difference in degree.
Tolerance
This needs to be cultivated by remembering the awareness of being nothing during meditations.
Waiting
1. After the individual sitting felt that He is very affectionate and taking so much care and I am not able to live up to His expectations.
You are surely deserving but it is your greed that makes you think you are not; and this is because you want to have progress or growth without waiting for the process to take its own time. Master is neither affectionate nor otherwise: he is beyond all our adjectives and qualities; you need to know that Sri Ramchandra Consciousness is what we are aspiring
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