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Common Meditational States of Mind Bliss
4. During last two - three satsanghs there has been a feeling of giving away self totally to Master. Faith in Him as the means and the goal has increased.
I am not discouraging you but you must note that Surrender (giving away to Master) is neither that simple nor easy. If you understand the role of the five kosas in our lives you will understand this better. However my best wishes for you to gain that condition soon.
5. Strongly feel Master's assurance in surrendering all unto Him.
To say we surrendered is easy and all say so. To feel having surrendered makes one confident and doubts vanish. That is the difference between the conditions of 4th and 5th knots.
6. During morning meditation had feeling of surrender after coming out of absorption. Surrender develops slowly as we realise our incapacities in the various planes of our existence. The individual creation is our own and that is because of the distortions we gave to the buddhi, Ahankar, manas and chitta. These distortions and twists have to be straightened and that is a slow
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