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SOUL Ego
No emotional overtones are there. No ecstasy is there. No prayers are there. It is just an awareness of being. Master perhaps refers to this when he says neither the beggar, nor beggars bowl is there but only begging. I do not know how to express it better. The Soul or identity is mere consciousness of nothingness. Neither the idea of vacuum nor the idea of space is there. There are no thoughts but simple awareness of nothingness. It is neither a bubble nor water but the memory of having been a bubble. I do not know whether what I have written makes the matter any clearer but that is what I know. While the devotedness and dependency are felt during the meditations, in actual day to day life this consciousness can take only the form of service to Master (kainkarya) and any other form of expression of this is only a residual effect of the individuality, These states are the agony and ecstasy of the Soul.
God
As for God, I never sought nor am I interested. Except the Kaushitiki Upanishad no one has described God and His land, all others talked of Brahman. Our Master leads us to Nothingness through Brahmagati and nothing more. If we cling 244