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55. During the morning meditation had the feeling of Sthithaprajnathva.
Settledness or Balancedness is the equivalent in our system to the concept of Sthithaprajnathva. Only when the doer, knower and enjoyer in us dies this condition prevails all the time. That day is not far off if you genuinely practice.
56. Usually at about 50 mins I get a rush of thoughts either from past OR of immediate nature and I come out of meditation. Only very few days I disregarded this rush of thoughts and continued. Many a times these are thoughts of embarrassing moments from my past.
As the thoughts that are lying buried deep down are coming out for evaporation, you are stopping meditation because of the unkindly nature of thoughts. This is not correct. Please continue meditation till the 1hr period is over. Patience and forbearance starts with our own thoughts first and then only it becomes natural with that of others. You cannot change the nature of thoughts that arise during meditation from the deep layers of consciousness, as they are your own collected and coolly stored in the depths of your being. Learn to
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