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16. Sadhana & Day to day life: Sometimes I feel the curiosity to read others but often I find others either seeking like me, repeating the Master's words or outright unacceptable.
Curiosity to read others? Why? How does it help you? You seem to be judging others and this is a bad habit and totally unspiritual. Please avoid this type of thinking in the interest of your sadhana.
17. Sleep has been perturbed almost every night in May and June by a dark force attacking at night. It was scary; my body was frightened and reacting to that force by waking up when it was arriving and by causing resistance to go to sleep. At the conscious level, I was not scared, just concerned and willing to understand what was going on as well as to find a solution. This dark force appeared to me as a conscious being like an animal taking energy from me every night. It stopped all a sudden as it started.
When a Salik or traveler is on the path some forces tend to attack them and to frighten them so that they may leave the path. This is a usual phenomena felt by many sensitive persons. My own experience which I may recall though it is something that happened many decades ago is: there is pressure on the chest region, darkness which is unusual seem to engulf the entire being causing a sense of apprehension. It was natural for me to remember the Master though no help was sought. The experience itself made me to get up and see whether there is any person or being around and finding none I used to resort to my prayer and meditation. The prayer is the usual prayer given to us by the Master. When I narrated these facts to Master he asked me whether my hands were on my stomach or chest at that time to which I said neither. He told me some times the physical posture gives such experiences and also told that there are forces which try to hinder spiritual progress in general. He said we should have the courage to move forward and ignore these events.
18. Day to day: (a) After Basant for 10 days, felt closeness of Master and feeling of gratitude. At the same time, felt distance. There was a pining feeling, leading to periods of restlessness. (b) There is more goal clarity and determination to not let other things bother too much. More balance. (c) More faith in Master and self.
As the saying goes little drops of water makes a mighty ocean. It is by fraction of inches that we grow and never by feet.