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Construction and other issues like purchase of car by my son. These have now been fully settled and there is no mental engagement on these at all. This must have had impact on my spiritual health and would have injected certain amount grossness. I can feel it now. While deeply expressing my gratitude for your spiritual diagnosis of my problem, I will now start more dynamic sadhana so that these temporary impediments shall be overcome and my Condition is restored to its original state.
It is obvious that you know why are in the present condition. It is easy to land into muck and cleaning is not all that simple or easy particularly when the mind is attached to the things sought to be cleaned. I have hinted in many places and wrote more clearly in some places in the various articles I wrote about the slippery path we have in the higher realms. To know reality is relatively simple but to hold it requires perseverance, persistence and determination. It is then the issue of priorities arise in more serious dimensions than we imagined earlier in sadhana. Commandment 4 is very clear in that it asks us to reduce activities. But that is not all that simple; it requires a determination to be a Cipher or Zero. Nothingness is neither an illusion nor an object to hold. Cleaning process is the toughest part of sadhana; giving sittings to aspirants at that time does not absolve our responsibility to attend to our task. Prayer is a state of being and not a time oriented routine. Once we seek to establish in that state all other duties and responsibilities to ourselves, family, larger family, mother land etc., become secondary. When we seek Brahmand where is the place for Pinda or Anda?
24. General Condition: Feeling to pass the message of Master and communicate about system.
Feeling is alright but what is the real work done in the spread of the message. If you speak no one accepts but if you practice some may get attracted.
25. Sometimes I am continuing with B Point meditation for longer time than required and couple of times I do not even remember whether I have offered the Prayer properly. Sometimes, the sensuous thoughts are coming and going immediately, just like a flash, especially before sitting for my meditation or satsangs. Sir, I have gone through the clarifications given by you in various articles, especially in Three Truths ¬Trillion Doubts on Point B and Point A meditations and I feel my attempts in focussing on the work which is required at that point, i.e., Point B&A meditations, are failing.