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further feelings inspite of any sitting. But the sitting would enable us to absorb/assimilate the condition. Hope I am clear.
7. For the past four or five months I have not sent my report and I am ashamed to even apologize. I seek Master’s mercy for not keeping up my word. I don’t know why I have developed so many inhibitions in writing to you, the main causes being irregularity and sloth in Sadhana. Whenever I think of writing to you I tend to over think so as to not to write anything silly and in the process, I always skip the writing itself. I also get thoughts like I am always writing the same things to you and I feel that I am disturbing you and fear for criticism. I apologize for the same.
If one were to be perfect at the beginning itself what is the need for sadhana. Is it not true that we form a fraternity where mutual guidance is the way of life? Avoid unfounded fears.
8. I did not maintain diary properly for past few months and hence felt ashamed to send the sadhana summary. I am determined now to read and note down everything as per instructions in the diary.
For one who is busy with house hold work it may not be possible to maintain diary on a day to day basis many times. You may instead keep notes by week or fortnight. The main idea is to focus on the already made determination/s.
9. Before morning meditation, I pray & do point B meditation. Occasionally, I get some thoughts of concern about others.
How long you pray and what thoughts arise at that time and what thoughts are there after the meditation are to be noted. Then we can make sensible conclusions.
10. This guidance of yours shook me up and your words had very good effect in my sadhana and in meditation particularly. Practically your words exposed the mistakes I make day in day out. Overall, I concentrated on obedience to Rev Master. Every single time I sat for sadhana, I bowed my head and did my sadhana as given by Rev Master with full heart. I just wrote in dairy what I felt.
You should write what you feel. No doubt about that. What is pointed as not proper. Do not react but contemplate the matter carefully.