Page 152 - Three Truths - Trillion Doubts - Volume -II

18. Basant Celebrations: Continuous steam of thoughts. Mostly mundane and family related. A few thoughts about sadhana. Disturbed feeling.
Whether we like it or not cleaning precedes actual influx of grace. This is more acutely felt by some during celebrations while in fact that is the position in every sitting with the trainer. Have we been purified or have we got rid off undesirable elements is a point of view based on which we can say we are absorbed or disturbed. To take things positively is healthier and refreshing always.
19. Basant Celebrations: After evening satsang, felt calm. Feeling of Master's presence everywhere. Thought to feel dependence on Master during my efforts instead of focussing on the effort alone.
No other attitude than just keeping a reverential attitude to Master really matters.
20. Rev.Babuji Celebrations: May 17 morning and evening satsangs: Lot of work related thoughts. Thoughts about altercations, misunderstandings at home and associated -ve feelings. Lots of heavy jerks right to left. Felt a lot lighter at the end.
Cleansings are like this only always. Churning has its own reward.
21. Rev.Babuji Celebrations: Afternoon: Deep silence, feeling of dependency. Experience of endless green pastures. Experience of green mountains submerged in a blue sheet of water. Feeling of reverence.
These conditions are blessings of the higher regions of consciousness.
22. Rev.Babuji Celebrations: Morning: Deep calmness. Blissful state. Towards the end there was a saturated and restless feeling.
“saturated” and ‘restless” do not go together. And both these words do not go well with the word ‘blissful’. I understand your condition and you should be happy about the same.
23. Rev.Babuji Celebrations: During the days of celebrations there were feelings and thoughts regarding love and compassion for all. Feelings of contentment.