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necessary to think that it is absolutely necessary to attend to the object of ones’ interest exclusively and that the focus on the goal is a matter of do or die.
Faith
1. Noted in my diary that deepest impressions are caused by Fears, Desires and notions of duty from our societal upbringing. In deep meditations, these do not seem to exist or bother, but whenever there is imbalance these seem to come back to forefront.
Impersonal presentations do not help me to suggest ways and means nor arrive at a method by which I can attend to the work. Fear as a rule comes when there is lack of faith in the Master and oneself. I think you should read the literature more carefully. The manner of formation of samskaras have been dealt with extensively and there is no different manner in which your samskaras got formed.
2. Felt disturbed during the meditation due to vague fears of death in the subconscious. The mind could not settle as I was proceeding on tour.
This shows attachment to body and also lack of faith in Master. This is a problem of non development of Vairagya.
More on Faith:
1. Everything happens according to divine will. Trust and faith in the Master as the all guiding principle in life is very important for us as sadhakas.
2. Determination and single pointed orientation to the Goal will give the necessary courage and also deal with the problems at home more holistically. Faith in Master and Faith in the Good is all that we have to cultivate.
3. Faith: Flight or fight; these are two are natural reactions of the lower nature of mind or animal mind. Faith in Master throws out both these emotions provided the faith is unflinching in every respect of the term. Effort done on point A meditation would be highly useful.