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to the presence of the Master in your heart all the time and make this your past time. This method of constant remembrance is easier and even superior to other methods which are also good.
Humility
1. This time I had to travel to many places. It did affect my sadhana schedule unlike the previous visits. Next time I will arrange my trips in such a way, that my sadhana will not be affected. I apologize and seek your pardon for these lapses.
All that is required is humility and proper orientation.
2. Thoughts about Rev Lalaji’s words “Center is Yawning towards circumference” did come during contemplation. Sometimes during meditation with awareness I felt heart was filled up with deep calmness with absolutely no disturbance. I felt Rev Master has taken over my heart at such moments. This I clearly felt as HIS grace and love and the above words of Rev Master came to me upon contemplation later. I clearly understand the more I yield, the more I can feel of HIS grace. HIS grace is always there every moment but I only have to yield more. It is HIS grace that enabled me to meditate. I did not do anything which can be called my effort.
That is fine and this is in the region of humility. Though the region itself is far off you are having reflected condition of that due to your effort and His blessings.
3. Attitudes: On observation during being silent and calm, the following were observed. I seek guidance from your kind self in improving these qualities further. (a) There is a vast improvement in the feeling of “Transitory nature of life”, but unresolved issues like the court case about the plot etc. are causing hindrance in improving further. (b) The attitude that I can plan or manage things on my own, is causing a problem in stabilising in feeling the “Omni Presence of Master”. (c) Attachment to spouse is causing a hindrance in further development of trusteeship. (d) Though compassion and empathy are there but the feeling that they have to develop further is felt.