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Do not try to change external environment with your opinions which is bound to be tinged with the colour of your pair of glasses. Instead be serious about the 9 p.m.prayer which seeks to improve the quality of human beings and a method given by the Master for all to practice. This method can be suggested to any person whether a sadhaka in PAM or not if he/she is interested in improving the human situation.
7. My sincerity towards 9 PM prayer has been high in last month. Even when I was not able to do meditation, I have tried to remain in that thought. After 9 PM prayer I feel I should continue in that for some time. Some days I am able to maintain the thought continuously for 15 mins and other days there are thoughts which seep in. If I sit for 9 PM prayer prior to cleaning, then intensity of thoughts is high.
How can there be other thoughts than the one given by the Master to be practiced during this period? That means your mind is not disciplined enough to maintain the thoughts related to Universal Fraternity. That is also but natural since that is a state of consciousness. Till you grow to that state you should do atleast the routine. Your cleaning in the evening or otherwise has nothing to do with this prayer.
8. I am also regular to attending the 9 PM prayer no matter where I am. Generally I try and maintain the thought given in the prayer but I am not feeling that thought in my heart. I practice it as a drama as recommended by Rev. Babuji in Reality at Dawn.
Please check up the book; do you think this method is advocated for the 9 p.m. Prayer? True it is that this feeling for universal fraternity is not all that soaked with the feelings in the initial stages but where is the need for Drama while meditating? Kindly get proper instructions for the trainer.
9. Automatically, I get remembrance at and around 9PM, about the prayer. Occasionally I had fraternal feeling. Many times however I become conscious whether I am maintaining the feeling. Therefore I tend to repeat the supposition several times in my mind (although it is not virtually saying like Mantra)
There is only one thought that all the human fraternity is developing love and devotion to Master and I do not understand any problem for any person in