Page 78 - Three Truths - Trillion Doubts - Volume -II

Bed Time Prayer
1. During the bed time prayer, I feel connected towards Master. I do repent for my mistakes, but I feel it is still mechanical. After bedtime prayer, I have to spend time with my family which is making it difficult for me to continue in the thought of Master till I go to sleep. I feel helpless regarding this aspect, if I do not spend enough time with family this normally leads to lot of altercations and ashanthi at home.
This is a common problem. What I have been doing is to spend time with the members of the family first and then retire for bed duly attending to my prayers. In the past when I used to come late from office I used to offer prayer late in the night when all are taking rest.
2. I have been regular to Point A and Bed time prayer. For the bed time prayer I still need to develop intense humility and be naked in front of MASTER and beg for his forgiveness.
In fact when we have learnt to pray properly we have also completed realizing our true state. Perseverance is the only way.
3. Regular in doing Point A meditation and Bed time prayer. Still need to develop the feeling of lowliness and humility for effective prayer.
When we know our condition and know His condition automatically the lowliness will be felt.
4. Only of late, I started doing regularly Point A meditation followed by bedtime prayer.
That should do you good. Better late than never.
5. Earlier I used to feel too sleepy to do bed time prayer.
That is nothing new to you. All lazy persons say this only. If you love God you will not say this-being a Hindu you cannot afford to say such things. You should read the Ten Commandments of the Master carefully and follow sincerely.