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6. As I struggle to follow this commandment in letter, I still falter. I feel I am not up to the mark of owning the viveka of transience of existence leading to sloth. My specific problem is unlike before, I am not waking up early enough to practice morning meditation consistently for one hour everyday. Sometimes I am good but not all days. I worry that sloth I had thought I got rid off is returning back. Need to come out of this complacency. Is this a vasana that is coming back?
Whatever it might be make a determined bid to follow the commandment. It is not anything connected to any samskara but only the influence of the environment.
7. TC-1: Very good. Offered prayer between around 5 AM and 9AM. Meditated for 40 minutes to an hour.
That is not surely following the commandment 1. Such a variation of time and timings shows lack of regularity. The evaluation as (Very Good) is perhaps not correct.
8. In this month, I was able to meditate early except for few occasions.
Read commandment 1 carefully along with the commentaries and understand when and how to meditate.
9. My sadhana for 2-3 weeks was not regular as I had fallen sick, but during that time, tried to be in the thought of the Master. Rest of the days, I am getting up early in the morning (3:00-3:30 AM), and doing my meditation. But due to pressure at home, that I will fall sick again if I take bath so early, I am doing the meditation just after washing my face. Meditations have been mostly peaceful and absorbing. After bath (7:00am), I am doing meditation again for around 20 minutes. Though I am doing meditation, sometimes I am feeling unhappy that I am doing meditation not taking bath.
When body does not co operate there is little that we can do. It is really good that you are able to attend to spiritual needs then also. Rigidity is not spirituality. It does not mean we violate rules as we like. The advice of your relatives are correct. It is stated that 'ya smaret Pundareekaksham sa bahyanta suchih' which I understand to mean when we remember our Lord we are cleaned both inside and outside. You may however try to offer regular prayer (morning meditation) after



























































































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