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clear that yielding attitude is a bit different from the self surrender that we think we have got. This self surrender that many people claim is not surrender to Master but surrender to their own self. Further it has been my bitter experience that many people who think that they have surrendered to the Master are the people who are suffering from an extraordinary sense of egoism. They think they have done a very great thing by surrendering themselves to the Master. This is an unfortunate situation, where the psyche is playing a big joke to the person. He does not think that self surrender demands a surrender of the consciousness of the self itself. Somewhere in between he gets stuck up and he thinks that he has surrendered and therefore, it is the Master and the Master alone has to attend to the appropriate action. So this shifting of responsibility of our sadhana towards the Master arises out of this peculiar clique of self surrender. It leads to lazy habits, it leads to an extraordinary egotism, ahamkar and then arrogance and all such sort of things. But, if we have really surrendered ourselves to the Master, these things do not arise. We must be aware of a small thing that everything is being done by the Master and when we do something wrong, we also say that it is the Master who has done wrong. I have
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