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PURIFICATORY PROCESS
insist on your attention is a question that you have got to put to yourself only then will you know whether you are just having a passing thoughts or pressing thoughts. If the thoughts are fleeting in nature then it can be said that you are getting cleaned. If the thoughts are not fleeting then the aspirant can be said to be troubled by Chitta Vritti. This is a circular thing that commands our attention, that demands our attention and finally makes one feel so bad about it that we would leave the cleaning process and get away. There are occasions when we feel compelled to get away from cleaning because we are afraid of facing it further. So the thoughts that you get in the evening are essentially your samskaras.
It is natural for us to be calm. God has given that status at the time of our birth it is we who have added all the blemishes that make us disturbed. Disturbed in the sense that we have applied our mind to other sensory inputs instead of applying to the particular consciousness of quiet sensory inputs. Occasional disturbances of a noise outside will not form an impression. Only when there is an intention for you to own that particular experience or a feeling you form a samskara. This is what is known as intentional
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