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DEVOTION
most us do not mean what we say. That atleast is our stage. I am only sharing my earlier agonies. These are the stages through which we have come. It is not that easy.
Devotion is not all that easy. It is not that easy to accept a Master. Though everybody says he is the master and everybody says that they are dependent upon him. Is he, is the question? And so long as the Kartruta Bhava is there or the Jnatutra bhava is there, you are going to be like that. That takes to the first five of Adhyatmika vidya. The jnana and the karma must be left. Kartruta bhavana is connected to Karma while the jnatutra bhavana is connected to jnana. But Bhakti alone is the bhavana that we can have. Do you understand! That is why I started with Adhyatmika vidya with three things. Adhyatmika vidya can be done through karma i.e. action. I try to do by disinterested action things etc. disinterested or interested actions, all this must go. Disinterested action will help us in not forming the samskaras. There is a separate logic for that. But so far as devotion is concerned, if you think you are the doer then the problem comes. That is why He says,”
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