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VAIRAGYA
of it there is no existence. So renunciation is renunciation of relationships as I pointed out earlier. While talking about Viveka, I mentioned that relationships arise only when we grant permanency for us. When we grant permanency to us only we can grant permanency to the relationships we have. If we say we are not permanent there can never be any permanent relationships.
So this awareness that we are not permanent itself is in troubles and why does it arise. I know that I am not the same child I was 64 years back, I was a baby, I know, I changed but why is that this persistence of the feeling that I continue to exist forever? From where does this illusion arise, who grants us this illusion? It is our consciousness that grants us that illusion: that is always permanent. That is the reason why it is said that the consciousness is permanent. Of the mind, chit and Ahankar and Buddhi, these four constituents of Atma, it is the Chit that is always permanent. It is always young, it never becomes old. Our thinking patterns can become mature but consciousness never matures. It is what it was; it is what it is and
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