Page 379 - Bodhayanti Parasparam Vol 6

‘We are and we are not’as also ‘we are not and we are’
Many times when sir severely reprimanded me and got angry due to the various lapses due to several acts of omission and commission, many times thought arose what have I bargained for? But his prayers and blessings ensured my continuation on the path and now the ego is significantly weakened and is on its death bed.
I will quote another passage from silence speaks page no159 which highlights the poor attitude towards sadhana.
“One of the essential things necessary for the achievement of negation is the growth of intense craving amounting to restless impatience, combined with sincere love and devotion. When the feeling of love is there in the heart, restlessness must come in by itself. The difference in degree may not be of much account in this respect since it may grow more and more in course of time. But what can be said of those who even get annoyed and irritated whenever a harsh or reprimanding word is used for them? That may be a clear indication of the fact that they do not like to free themselves from their egoistic feelings. It is just possible that they might be under the impression that to put them on the right path, and to give them higher approaches, forms a part of my duty towards them. It may be so to some extent, but then at the same time they must also bear in mind that they are to make themselves deserving for it. I feel concerned with everyone of you but only to the extent that it lies within the limits of my essential duties. I induce everyone to try for the nullification of self, but they do not care to take into view even its elementary steps, and I have to put up with it. I speak of it in very guarded words lest someone might get annoyed.”
We should be prepared to yield to The Master in all planes of existence.
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