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When we are out of Reality we become Satan
happy. This is a kind of a euphoric experience that no sadhaka can deny and all sadhakas remember it fondly and ardently and move forward in their journey very effortlessly. There is certain sense of ease and naturalness in the whole process that every sadhaka experiences.
c) There is another phase of Sadhana when we are taken over by slumber and slothfulness. Inertia is quite high and the mental state is one of enjoyment in worldly pleasures and disinterest in sadhana, disinclination to attend to satsangs etc. We find the condition very heavy and we tend to avoid sitting for meditation and even if we sit we do not feel the absorbency and feel quite disturbed. There is certain amount of indifference towards Sadhana. Some try to get engaged in other activities as busily as before while some feel bad, disgusted, helpless, irritable and get depressed. All these happen very suddenly and to get back to your prayer seat with the same enthusiasm may be take quite a while under different circumstances. When we are out of Reality we are surely in the company of satan and what is described above is the play of Satan. Dwelling in great length about this, Rev KCN in talk titled “ Gird up you Loins” during Basant 2000 celebrations and published in Bodhayanti parasparam- Vol 1. Rev KCN has exhorted in this manner. Really that article is very invigorating. I seek your kind permission to quote a Paragraph from that talk, "There are some abhyasis who make the statement that they are dejected or depressed at the fact they have been falling off the required practice, I must say there cannot be any other worse feeling to
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