Page 41 - Bodhayanti Parasparam Vol 6
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When we are out of Reality we become Satan
Personal experience of Satanic influences:
a) I was many times let down in sadhana by this kind of
feeling. Once I was listening to a talk of Rev KCN, in that he was mentioning that because of the surfacing of some samskaras, sometimes our aspiration level gets dimmed and we feel disinclined. This knowledge helped me many a time to identify and nip the problem at the bud. Immediately, I used to resort to cleaning very assiduously and try attending daily satsangs regularly at our meditation centre. This helped me in getting rid of the feeling of disinclination and regain my interest in sadhana. At that time, If my family members or others talked about sadhana then I used to react in a very sharp manner telling that I know what I am doing. The ego would not let me think of the problem. Here the satan was the ego of mine which never allowed to heed to good counsel.
b) Many times, the brooding nature would get me bogged down so much that I could not settle well in meditation. The disturbing experience is never an incentive for next day meditation. Days used to Pass like this. I feel these kind of problems can tackled best by our trainers alone as they have helped me to overcome from this kind of intricacies. The Satan here was playing with my past samskaras, be it a avarana or be it a vikshepa. But in retrospective analysis it appears that the vikshepa is a breeding ground for brooding and the satan revels in that ground which is always marshy. It is but for the Master’s grace that I could be out of it.
c) In this regard I would like to share some of the liberating thoughts that struck to me during meditations also during pranahuti sessions which are all from the Master. They are as follows:
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