Page 578 - Bodhayanti Parasparam Vol 6

Bodhayanti Parasparam Vol 6
While elaborating the refinement of consciousness, Master says that idea of freedom also must be lost. Initially if one is not keen about freedom from the problems of life permanently, he will not choose the path. Later if he is not prepared to get rid of that idea of freedom, then he will be not be happy and may resort to inaction. Yoga demands action and perfection for which we must be prepared to lose many ideas so that we live in the present to execute action perfectly.
Some people consider the number of hours or years of practice as deserving to feel the Divinity. Giving an example of excellent devotee of God, Dr KCV states 'So it is necessary for you to wait for God, rather than make God to wait for you, even when you are very devoted and loving. This happens in every case when you think the ritual of number is more important than the practice and realization of the presence of God before you even before you call Him.' (Dr KCVW vol I - 457- Pathway to Liberation)
Many a times, when one hints us in ridiculous manner about our behavior, we don't pay attention to the cautioned aspect of the ridicule. This attitude may be helpful in early days of practice; otherwise we condemn ourselves and resort to discontinuation of practice. As we become better, we have to use it discriminatively for our refinement.
Sensitivity increases when purity increases. Small defects will be highlighted naturally like stains on a balloon get magnified on inflation. We learn to rectify them or present them humbly before Master for his disposal coupled with resolution not to retain them. Many times while conversation with others we refer to ourselves frequently depending on the extent to which we get held up in our own thinking. If we minimize self-reference in our transactions and are aware of the Master from within,
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