Page 617 - Bodhayanti Parasparam Vol 6

“The understanding comes when the seed at the bottom is fried up”
should be thankful to the Master and the person, who is agent of the Master helping us.
All the lost opportunities, all the history of mishaps, misdeeds and mistakes of ours and others weigh heavily on the heart. The bad deeds that we did are a big load for us to handle. The guilt is killing. We know the mistake; we know the effect it had on us and on others. We regret and repent. At bed-time we pray to the Master for his mercy to pardon us for the mistake and we make a resolution never to repeat it. I am ready to pay the fine and face the punishment for the mistake but I seek from Him the strength and courage for it. There are mistakes committed knowingly or unknowingly. There are mistakes committed in this life and in previous ones. We are responsible for all the mistakes which in seed form are settled on our heart. We should follow the tenth commandment. (10. At bed time, feeling the presence of God, repent for the wrongs committed unknowingly. Beg forgiveness in a supplicant mood, resolving not to allow repetition of the same).
The strong man plans for revenge while the weak man resorts to brooding. The wise man drops the issue/incident and moves on for; he knows that it is not only wastage of time but also forming or strengthening of impressions about the issues. This wisdom is slowly coming up in me. Brooding has been my problem and it took years for me to come out of the habit, thanks to the constant help and guidance from the Master. The memory of the incident is there but the weight/strength of the impression is reducing. I have not forgotten but I have learnt to forgive. This is such a great relief. Only when a similar incident happens or someone reminds us of the incident again, we tend to recollect the past incident, that too mildly.
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